It seems like there is nothing this experience hasn’t impacted on. Physically it took a long time to heal up post surgery, and I lost a lot of self confidence. The Pre Eclampsia made me gain a significant amount of weight, and I struggled to lose it with the trauma manifesting physically also. I felt disconnected from my body in many ways, like I had no ownership over it, it wasn’t really mine. Because I had had so many medical exams and felt so vulnerable, I separated myself from my body for a while, and told myself the birth was something that had happened to me, rather than something I did, like in a natural birth.